Following the Chimeric Star

Following the Chimeric Star

Original cover of the 1988 edition
Author	Tomass Sídlaŕ
Original title	Nach tí Chimérissën Stérnaie
Illustrator	Jakov Sídlaŕ
Cover artist	Jakov Sídlaŕ
Country	Walneria
Language	Walnerian
Genre	Psychological fiction
Publication date	12 May 1988
Published in Anglish	7 November 1992

Following the Chimeric Star (Walnerian: Nach tí Chimérissën Stérnaie) is a 1988 novel written by the Walnerian screenwriter and journalist Tomass Sídlaŕ. It is written using the first-person narrative mixed with few moments, where the third person omniscient subjective is used. It is set in the "present day", as no year is mentioned and the book is kept vague to make it feel like it may be happening at any time. The illustrations, always using a dark blue - purple gradient with white silhouettes on it, were drawn by the author's brother Jakov Sídlaŕ.

Characters

The main character is the 19-year-old Petŕ Junek, a student, who is seeking a refuge from the stress with a female character referred to only as a "Star" (with a capital S). Star is a young woman which is described only in metaphors, at least through the eyes of Petŕ. Minor characters of the story are Petŕ's father (who remains unnamed), Petŕ's teacher (who also remains unnamed) and Petŕ's group of two friends (which are referred to only by nicknames Kurys and Globi, however, Kurys's surname was mentioned to be "Kuriáss").

Personalities

• Petŕ (Sometimes translated as Peter) - Melancholic introverted 19-year-old, who struggles with school and has the tendency to give up a fight before it even begins
• Star (Sometimes kept with the original name Stérna) - Young female (about the age of Petŕ), described as spontaneous and highly likeable, however, she has the tendency to be highly responsible and extroverted
• Petŕ's father - Strict and conservative parent, who projects his own ideals onto Petŕ, even though Petŕ does not share his world-view
• Petŕ's teacher - Strict but fair old male, who seeks to push his students through the final exam, even though he realizes that some do not have the required skills
• Kurys & Grobi - Highly spontaneous extroverted 20-year-olds who share a hedonistic world-view

Plot summary

Introduction

The plot of Following the Chimeric Star begins with Petŕ being told by his teacher, that he failed the Matura and is asked to come back in September (5 months from then), to try to re-take it. After that, Petŕ, being in a state of shock and not being able to comprehend the reality at hand, leaves for home. At home, he is scolded by his father, who holds a long speech about Petŕ being too lazy to work for his future, saying, that he does not deserve one. As a final note, he is grounded for a week, with everything but his study material taken away. He is also reminded, that he has a three-week-long part-time job that is supposed to show him, what manual labor means. In the evening, after eating dinner, his father locks him in a bedroom and goes downstairs, being too angry to speak to him.

The book skips to him sitting in the park at night, after which a girl comes and sits next to him, she is introduced in a dialogue as a "Star". They talk for a while, and he tells her, that he failed the exam and is down, she tries to lift him up and tries to relax him through the idea of a second chance in September. They proceed to leave the park and go to an unspecified place, known only by Star.

The next morning, Petŕ is tired, and his father is giving him the silent treatment. TV is running a newsreel about an economic recession and father is eating a large bowl of müssli. Petŕ spends the day in his room, looking over walls and ceiling, sometimes opening one of the many books that he has been left with in order to study, however, he can not get his mind to concentrate on the subject at hand. In the evening, he is no longer locked in the room. Again, there is a cut and Petŕ is sitting next to Star on a cliff over a city, excusing himself for the delay. They speak for a little while, getting to know each other. She reveals few things about herself outside of her mentality, keeping the idea of mysterious personality.

Setup

During the next few chapters, this cycle repeats with multiple changes, such as his father slowly getting less angry and trying to normalize the relation between him and his son, and his friends asking him if he wants to sneak out for some party. Each meeting with Star creates a stronger bond between Petŕ and Star. Eventually, on the seventh meeting, Petŕ asks if he could stay for longer. Star says, that she can not affect his life, it is up to him to pull himself up by the bootstraps and to get his ducks in row. She then asks if she is distracting him from his problems, if she is "only a plaster on his wounds". Petŕ denies this and tells her he loves her. She nods and whispers, that she loves him, too. They reach for a kiss, however, their lips don't touch.

A major change happens, when there is no intentional book cut, and it is revealed, that Star is living only inside of Petŕ's head, as after this dialogue, he wakes up to an alarm. He feels depression over him not being a second faster. The next few days, it comes clear, that his father is getting worried about him apparently losing the will to do anything and asks if everything is alright. Petŕ confirms, that everything is fine and goes to bed, even though it is afternoon. His father runs up the stairs and asks him why he is sleeping a lot. Petŕ, realizing, that he has no chance of explaining it to his father, says, that he is just tired of all the studying. To this, his father smiles and says, that he sleeps more than studies.

Gradation

The day of the part-time job rolls around and Petŕ is forced to carry heavy boxes for below the minimal wage in the heat of the noon sun for three weeks. After coming home, he simply falls asleep, giving him more time for Star. He has taught himself, that Star's world is the only one pleasant, developing a positive feedback loop of negativity and defeatism, which results in his escapist tendencies escalating. His friends try to convince him to go hang out (like two times before, he has gone out with them in the book), but he refuses. The story escalates when he completely gives up studying and starts taking sleeping pills to spend more time with Star.

Star is slowly realizing something is wrong. She is still very friendly and does her best to support Petŕ in the struggle he is stuck in, but eventually asks, what has happened. Petŕ replies, that he hopes he could join her forever, which she vehemently refuses and asks him why he wants to do that. He replies, that this is way better life than the one he has been served, gesturing at the small farm with horses and sheep they are watching from the hilltop. She smiles and tells him, that she loves him, and that she wishes him only the best, upon which she asks him to please get his life in order, for her, as it hurts her as much as him. He nods.

As the end of August approaches, Petŕ is struggling hard to get a grasp on the subject he has failed in the first matura and spends a lot of time to get the required general knowledge to pass. At night, Star is giving him the much-needed emotional validation which the outer world failed to offer him. Once Petŕ realizes he is stuck in a loop of self-harm, he tries to open to his dad about the existence of Star. His father refuses to believe it and calls him crazy, saying, that "he better not try giving him this bullshit and better get a life".

Climax

Last illustration of the book, paraphrasing a famous Salvian painting The Creation of Adam

See also: Afterlife Antechamber

Broken, Petŕ tries to spend his last few days before the exam memorizing the most complicated parts of the subject. Star seems to understand the tension he is in and tries her best to provide him with the much-needed comfort the outer world was designed to deny him. As the day of the matura comes, Petŕ prays for the best. Unfortunately for him, his teacher was in a bad mood that day and made him pick the most complicated question, which he falls short of by a small margin. Failing for the second time and being faced with a prospect of losing any hope in the future, Petŕ goes to sleep to ask Star what exactly is he supposed to do, only to find out, that she is nowhere to be found.

Fearing he failed her, he decides that he may need to go deeper into his dreams to find her. He takes all the sleeping pills at the same time, along with multiple painkillers, hoping that this would give him the kick he needs to see Star once again. The drugs had multiple active agents which acted against each other, and Petŕ died of overdose at the age of 19. The book ends with a first-person shot of Petŕ reaching his hand for Star, as she reaches her hand back, both engulfed in a complete darkness of an afterlife antechamber.

Interpretation

It is suggested, from multiple interviews with Tomass Sídlaŕ, that the whole book is a metaphor for a clash of the perceived world, values, reasoning and priorities of a person with autism and the society's perceived world, values, reasoning and priorities at large. This idea may be backed with the fact, that Tomass Sídlaŕ has been diagnosed with Asperger syndrome at age 9.

Alternate interpretation is, that the book is referring to a set of ideas and feelings in the heart of a child, that is unwillingly pushed to grow up and emotionally mature by its parents at too young age, being forced to face consequences for something that is not under its control.

The character of Star, and the dream world at large, may be a metaphorical representation of the world-view that is threatened by the consensus of the society, which does not respect minority opinions and world-views and is trying to enforce uniformity of moral values.

Reception

See also: Commentary to the Chimeric Star

The book was originally met with mixed reception, with multiple famous authors calling it a parody of a literature, or noting its partial similarity to the book The Sorrows of Young Werther. However, in the early 1990s, the generation of people between 20th and 40th year of age, which have gone through the standardized matura exams, found this book inspiring and creative, getting its re-publishing in 1995 to the top of bestseller lists in Walneria.

Irony

In the 2009 revision of the Matura Literature Canon, which is a set of books from which students can pick books for their Matura in literature, Following the Chimeric Star has been included. Tomass Sídlaŕ noted, that his is a rather ironic twist, as if even a single student fails the exam by picking this book, the story of fiction, which was meant to refer to a corrupt society hunting for success will turn into a story, that happened in reality.